Life changes. I accept this. It's just part of how it all works. Things change, people change, I change. But I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being some sniffling little ass wipe. I'm single again. But that's ok. I'm fine with it. I'm going to do something I've never done before. I'm NOT going to mope around. I'm going to get out there again. I'm opening myself up. I've learned a lot over the past couple of months. I learned about myself. I saw parts of my personality I've never seen before. I liked it. It felt good. It felt real. Everything felt real. I've been dreaming for years. Living in my own little world where nothing can touch me and I can just ignore my problems. But yesterday night I opened those doors. I let myself out for the first time. It seemed like the only thing I could do then. For the first time ever I feel totally free. Free to do what I want and say what I want. Without fear of consequences. I couldn't have done it without two people. They should both know who they are. They are both incredibly wonderful people. I will love them forever. In the past 15 hours I have started down a new train of thought. Abandoning everything I feel comfortable with. Accepting everything for how it is. For the first time ever, I feel comfortable just moving on from my past. Going on with my life. I haven't really for years. I've just been stuck in this mindless state. But no more. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Today is the first day of everything. It's the first day of change. It's the first day of revolutions. It's the first day I forgive everyone for anything they ever did to me. And it's the first day I stop regretting actions I have taken before. Today is my revolution. Monday, December 18th 2006 at 12:05PM I move on. I take what I had. And go on.


-Dan